...online looking for my e-ticket booking but have accidentally on purpose stumbled on my little corner of Eden. I'm packed sort off and I think I have used shoes to over compensate for my 'I don't feel attractive state of mind'. My parents keep calling because they have forgotten stuff in London and I'm meant to bring it so I keep unzipping!!!!

I have to run to the shops because I need batteries for my torch (NEPA preparations) and I'm sluggish and bloated because I'm late aarrggghhh!

OK OK OK I'm going to leave and get on with things so I can return and type quickly about Christmas day before I travel. See the drama! After all these months of non-Ex Hottie stories it all kicked off on Christmas and I have witnesses. I'm telling you, you try and mind your business and people want to start something!!!!

OK OK OK.... I'M GOING!

PS I hope you are all are doing fine xxxxxx

where is your cell phone? In my handbag

where is your significant other? I don't have one.

your hair color? Naturally dark brown

your mother? Imo State

your father? Anambra State

your favourite thing? Forever will be reading

your dream last night? I'm not sure but I think I wanted to pick someone who was stranded at the airport and my Mum wouldn't let me. Quite bizarre.

your dream/goal? Communications expert to the UN, NATO, Coca-Cola etc

your hobby? Reading, blogging, tv, karaoke, dancing, more dancing and fake hair!

your fear? Having to settle for less

where do you want to be in 6 years? In my own home, when a job that makes me happy and a man that understands how I tick.

where were you last night? Upstairs, ironing my Dad's shirts and watching NCIS

what you're not? Quiet and a lover of salads.

one of your wish list items? High heels that don't hurt, after going out this weekend twice in them my kness are a shadow of their former self!

where you grew up? London/Lagos/Owerri.

the last thing you did? Checked my bra and realised it was quite pretty!

your pet? Never had one.

your computer? At home, still newish, with a beautiful large screen, great for watching movies.

your mood? Resilient. I get stressed, then I get over it! Can be very happy and carefree too. The older I get the more I cut out things that add worry lines to my face. IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT!
missing someone? Not right now because I know I'll see them soon.

your summer? Was rubbish in London, total pants! Went to America for a couple of weeks and got some heat there.

love someone? Famliy and friends. Not that many.

your favourite colour? Black and pink!

when is the last time you laughed? A few minutes ago, reading blogs.

last time you cried? Last week, arguing with Baked Beans. Made me realise that come New Year it may all be over. Oh well. God dey!

are you genuine or fake? It actually takes a lot of energy to be fake! Who has that time? If I don't like you, I'll just keep my distance.

any vices? One bad habit, can you guess?

pro life or wire hanger? Pro life. Don't even go there with the wire hanger thing, that's just wrong! Eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww

mccain or obama? The middle name of my first born son will be Barrack.

OK I tag Sirus and Freaksho, by the time they type finish they will be hunting me down (insert evil laughter!)

I Am a "Kept" Woman

You see, there were a few times when I thought I would lose my mind, But GOD kept me sane. (Isa. 26:3)

There were times when I thought I could go no longer, But the LORD kept me moving. (Gen 28:15)

At times, I've wanted to lash out at those whom I felt had done me wrong, But the LORD kept my mouth shut. (Psa. 13)

Sometimes, I think the money just isn't enough, But GOD has helped me to keep the lights on, the water on, the car paid, the house paid, etc.., (Matt. 6:25 -34)

When I thought I would fall, HE kept me up. When I thought I was weak, HE kept me strong! (I Pet. 5:7, Matt. 11:28-30)

I could go on and on and on, but I'm sure you hear me! I'm blessed to be "kept."

NB I got this from my friend but it resonated with me so much with the last month I have had. Being ill, stress at work, family drama and feeling broken! But you get some kind of strength and get up and keep going, I want to take this opportunity to acknowledge that the strength came from God through his instruments on earth!

Stupid me on the phone to Baked Beans, Sunday evening.

CaramelD: Did you mean what you said this afternoon?

Baked Beans: Which part of what I said?

CaramelD: That you missed me?

Baked Beans: Of course I meant it [pause one beat] I miss all my friends!

CaramelD: Is that so?

Baked Beans: I hope you aren't getting soppy on me!

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Chai I have suffered. This is the height! In the afternoon, he (that doesn't do emotional) told me he missed me and I thinking that it was one of his jokes, brushed it off and he got upset. So that evening I was asking if he had meant it. The reply is now to group me as friends shebi???!!!

It is all right! Let's roll out the friendship wagon. I will count how many of his friends he kisses, spends two hours on the phone to at 2am and freaks out on when they go on holiday and don't tell him! Friends my arse!!!

OK he should look for me this Christmas and will see how friendly I'll be! IDIOT!!!

This is entrapment! When I want to cool things off, this boy will not leave me alone. When I stay then this kind of nonsense! The last thing anyone would want to do is annoy this month because I will come out all guns blazing. I am in the mood and looking for a victim and he has just painted a giant bulls eye on his forehead!

...yes I am! A big kiss (no fear, it's on the cheek) and a hug as well for all your comforting thoughts and wishes. I felt so low and I didn't know what to do with myself and then I'll come on my site and see comments and I would feel better (also with the help of pain killers and antibiotics). LOL

The doc said I had run myself down to the ground and to stay home for the rest of the week.

Errr no!

Two days was what I managed abeg. My Dad had gone into full Diva status and I couldn't be left alone. Also some things were really pressing at work, so here I am back in the saddle but being really calm and zen like about the whole thing.

So let me lay down the gist.....

At work they were missing me and feeling bad that I was using my phone to call in about certain issues that they ordered me a Blackberry! I will now join those annoying people that check their email on the train (hehehehe).

Also, last month I met a guy at a fancy dress party that I went to and I added him on FB to share pics etc. Out of the blue he sent me a message (which was a bit shocking), then I replied, then he replied, and it has been going like that all week :) I had forgotten the thrill of talking to someone new (who doesn't annoy you) and finding stuff you have in common and the thrill of subtle flirting ( I think) etc.

On a serious note, I came to work to find that I had made an error on a big press release! I was so shocked, because that is the cardinal sin for PR and Advertising. I really have to pull up my socks and be more careful in the future.

PS I don't think I'm feeling the Christmas spirit which is ironic as I am in charge of Secret Santa in my office! Ho ho ho !!!!

I don't like moaning, I think it breeds bad energy and I do believe that I'm sounding like a broken record. A couple of weeks ago I had a barrage of symptoms two weeks ago with sore throat, runny nose, aching joints etc. I thought yep, it's the season and just drank all sorts until it passed. It was so bad that I even had nose sores at the end of it all! Fine it was over whatever!

Then in comes my period last week to bitch slap me for two days and all the ensuing madness. It is fair to say that I felt like crap but, it happens, wait for it to be over, whatever!

Now, only for me to come to work today and (I have stopped taking painkillers for my period this morning) and my throat is sore, my joints ache, I feel hot and cold all over like I have the beginning of malaria! I AM TIRED!!! How many times can I tell my manager that I feel under the weather eh? She will soon start thinking either I'm pregnant or just a moaning cow. Whatever is happening I think was suppressed by my pain killers because the speed it came today was just too fast.

I am irritable, tired and grumpy and it is affecting my work. I want to put my head on someones lap and just cry but there is no one to cry in their lap. I can't even collapse at home because I'm meant to be looking after my Dad who just had an operation on Thursday. I'm so tired, I think I'm close to breaking point. I so have to muscle in and see my doctor tomorrow by hook or by crook.

Chineke biko mere m ebere.