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Feelings all over the pace this morning. I think it's an aftershock from this week.

Got the news earlier this week that a member of my extended family is a child molesting paedo rapist monster and I still feel sick.

Where do you even start? First of all is to make sure that the victim is okay and receiving couselling but in Nigeria how do you take someone like that down? Especially after the duration of over a decade. Also at the same time he is still somebody's husband and father. How do they deal with all of this? My head can't contemplate.

With that running in the background, focusing on the day to day is weird. I am looking at things in a different light. Ah only God can sort this out oh.

You can imagine how I felt when I got asked on a date for last night. Automatic reaction was to say no but a) the man has been a perfect gent and I would feel like an uber bitch saying no for no reason and b) after breaking up with my ex last November I had to activate my re-set button.

So first of all he was late, then in waiting for him, I then became late and when I got to the restaurant and called I couldn't see him even though he was parked on the street. Turned out he broke his car key while locking the door :( Na wa oh!

In the end we did have a nice enough date chatting and laughing for about an hour but it was always at the back of our minds that he lives an hour away and has no car. In the end he got pliers from a shop and used it to turn the key in the ignition and that brought the date to an end because no one is taking a risk of turning the engine off again.

I have promised that I will see him again and even though I didn't feel any butterflies and I wish he had made a little more effort with his apperance, I'm still glad I went :)

So this week I have lost way more trust in mankind, will invest heavily in nanny cams and I have pressed the re-set button.
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I'm writing.
I'm writing.
I'm writing something and very soon I will click 'publish' and it will be the first post in 13 months.

I do know that this is pretty basic stuff but the excitement is quite tremendous. I have broken my long streak of unanimated creative laziness and I'm thankful to God for it.

It's crazy how much something can be important to you. I found that there is an actual detriment to myself when I am not writing and it is a hobby that I don't want to lose because to lose it would be to lose a big part of myself.

I don't even know if this will ping on anybody's radar but 'Happy New Year' if you are one of the five people reading this!!!

Let's see if I can do a quick 2015 re-cap before it fades into the random shadows of my memory.


  • Had a very stressful restructure and work and now have a new job at work.
  • Went to a Game of Thrones exhibition and sat on the Iron Throne  
  • Threw a very awesome anniversary (second wedding) for my folks. Super cute. 
  • Went to Chicago for the first time for little cousin's graduation.
  • Dropped my learner plates.
  • Had a boyfriend (yay) then broke up with him after a few truths were revealed (boo).
  • Finished the year with epic family reunion in Nigeria and general good times with a hint of naughtiness.
So 2015 was interesting but I felt stagnant. Looking to 2016 for a whole lot more action!